Well first of all, my memory is very well and extraordinary because I just got it tested around one month ago
I hope so. Well, extraordinary may be when it comes to
STM (in Chinese: 短期记忆 (English:
Short-term memory)), but you saw what happened when it's about the
LTM (in Chinese: 长期记忆 (English:
Long-term memory)). It's nearly unbelievable --being here one of the eldest, writing so many incelology-related articles, publishing an e-book about inceldom + clearly chatting with you on QQ (even sharing photographs) and in one beautiful moment you're thinking of me as an ordinary incel-student who has no idea what the Buddhism is... Not a good reference for a normal LTM (about the "extraordinary" even not necessary to speak.)
Secondly, sorry for my misprojection of your amount of learning of Buddhism, because(what I can throw is better than this but...) I couldn't even imagine any person who was a former Buddhist claiming that Buddhism was suppressive and pessimistic...
I do value your politeness. Glad to see a "sorry", really.
But/and about the Buddhism it's exactly the other way around: BECAUSE OF being a Buddhist, I can tell/know/feel/experience its bad sides. Isn't it the same when it comes to China? Exactly, because of being a very big China fan for long, I can now objectively criticize the neo-emperorisation (neo-emperarization) because I knew the real CCP China (when there were no dictators after Mao Zedong) and the recent China, i. e. Xi-na (Xina; Xi's China)...Were you practicing Paramitas?
If you're talking about the 波罗密 (पारमिता), of course I did and I still do (most of it) but based totally on the scientific base. For example, 忍 (kṣānti) is something that you can practice (and/or know, use, etc.) based entirely on the present science knowledge; you don't need to start it only when you read/hear about it from some Buddhist.
This is even more important than reading literatures
It may be important for the Buddhists but what is important for the knowledge/understanding of the Buddhism (i. e. to have a Meta-Buddhist view; a real objective knowledge about the Buddhism) is the literature, the theory. This is valid for everything -- from the birds to the neo-emperor, first and foremost you need the theory, the knowledge.
Were you having a Guru? a Buddhist must have a Guru for learning Buddhism well otherwise he or she may mislead himself or herself like yeah thinking Buddhism is inactive, pessimistic, anti-humanity etc....
My "guru" were the specialists of Buddhism like professor Иван Камбуров (Ivan Kamburov):
http://phls.uni-sofia.bg/article/3032. There were more too, but let me show you (via Google Translate) his background and you think is he a guru or not:
"伊万·坎布罗夫教授博士
学术传记
现任大学职务：讲师
BA/MA，年份，学科：MA，哲学系，SU“St. Cl. Ohrid”； 1979-1984年，圣彼得堡国立大学哲学系，哲学专业（哲学史专业）
博士学位，年份，主题：1992 哲学博士，（05.00.01）哲学史（东方哲学）； “多克索拉菲纪念碑中桑卡拉的阿德瓦塔-吠檀多哲学”
资格（学科）：2011年哲学教授（古典佛教）（2.3）； 2002年 哲学史副教授（东方哲学）
编辑委员会成员
1994年至2004年，以及2012年《哲学》杂志编辑。 周一
摘自 1999 年《Svetilnik》杂志，编辑。 印度之友俱乐部
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怎么样？ Enough "guru" level or still not?
And I want to tell you about one Chinese "guru" who used a way to sleep with women there -- "teaching" them that to prove they are real female Buddhists they should't care about having or not sex with who and... to "become" true Buddhists they had to sleep with him! One of them told me that in one moment she realized that she is not a Buddhist but a cheap whore for doing this. And I'd like to add -- a "very stupid one". Yes, I am talking about Zhou Ning. This is what many of your "gurus" are. So, better trust the specialists and scientists than the "gurus".
my teacher told me we'd better not learn Philosophy otherwise it might be endangering us...
That teacher is 100% right about
some of the philosophies. A pro-philosopher should know all of the philosophy branches, kinds. For example, even I dislike the religious philosophies, as a pro I had and I did/still do learn them more or less. But if you're just a student and you start with some over-pessimistic philosophy like that one of Schopenhauer /阿图尔·叔本华 (Arthur Schopenhauer)/, well then, you may end up in a very bad condition. But if you learn something written by more optimistic philosophers like Socrates, Engels and so on, then it's not dangerous.
You yourself said that you had yet to read tons of literatures because of your life, which definitely misleads you to thinking of Buddhism this way...
It's because I know that knowledge is like a white circle on a big blackboard. The bigger is the circle, the more it touches the unknown. That's why learning is a nonstop process. For example, if you never heard of Cambodia you're not going to know about Pnom Penh but if you know even its capital (Pnom Penh), then you may start to know that there are big rivers, many Buddhist temples, etc. The more you learn, the more unknown (questions) you may have, so this is why we should read and learn "endlessly".
It seems to me you don't even know what are 'sunyata', 'anitya', 'dukkha', 'anatman' etc., which are basic concepts and ideologies of Buddhism.
Seems to you because you're: 1. judging people without prior knowledge who are they
+ 2. you want to show how greater you are compared with the commoners (but for a bad surprise, here you don't deal with teenage incels in the US or low-educated rich 富家子弟 and 富二代 in Shanghai. You're dealing with people with 20+ more years experience, hard work and knowledge than yourself.)
Just an example, to state the ridiculousness of what you think that Geser Kurultaev doesn't know about anatman ("非我"). In 1990 (when you even didn't exist in your parents' thoughts) I spent all my money, for a month food, to buy the last "Soviet Encyclopedic Dictionary" in Russian, Soviet Edition! It's its Chinese name: "苏联百科词典
". Here you may see how it looks like: 
and I started to read and learn everything about Asia, China, Daoism, Buddhism, Confucianism, etc. One of the first things that I learned in the period 1990-1993 (you still was not born that time) was about the anatman (soon after I learned about people in Buddhism like Ananda), which in Russian (I used this foreign language to educate myself + English) is "Ананда" https://www.rulit.me/books/enciklopedicheskij-slovar-read-140017-93.html (I even know the etymology of the word -- "an-" + "atman" and was thinking how similar is the negative particle with the Greek one! For example the word "anarchy" in Greek is from an- "without" + arkhos "ruler".)
If you're intelligent enough, you should get it: In
the period 1990-1993 I even learned the etymology of the words like "Ananda" and "anatman". But you think that it's some very "secret" or "high" knowledge that is "unoptainable" ?! 
Well whether one thing is excellent or not depends on individual right?
This is an agnostic and relativistic view. From the viewpoint of the relativism, of course it is but if you're not a relativist and you know that some things are more easy to be "measured", to be observed objectively, then you can't say that the theories excellence is just a subjective and relativistic choice. One of the ways to see if something is good or not is the practice (a good point of the Leninism).
...just because you think Buddhism is bad, without having ever been practicing and learning it systematically enough?
The difference between the humans and most of the rest of the animals is exactly this: we don't need to practice something in order to know it. For instance, you can see photos of Mars in NASA's website and to get the idea what's on Mars, without being there.
I see what is happening with many Buddhists: they're just becoming quitters because of the idea of "It's all Karma" and/or "In the next life, I will be better."
Also, the Buddhist diet isn't the best for many of us. And at the end, especially in your case: the combination is nearly dangerous for your ascending: 1. you're not tall, you have no big frame and this with malnutrition of a Buddhist vegetarian diet will make you less masculine in the eyes of the women, 2. you're not strong enough mentally and all those fake hopes for next life, karmism and so on, may make you even weaker, 3. you're rich but easy to believe which will make some fake gurus just to lie you to pay them a lot of money "for your happiness"... Why I am looking at least 20 years younger? 1. I do sports, 2. I am not a vegetarian and at the same time I avoid a lot of meat, 3. I don't smoke and don't drink hard alcohol, 4. I read useful literature to keep my brain younger, active and I do keep my "spirit" young with some youth content like manhwa (Korean manga). This is the "secret".
OK, I think I prove enough and with the all due respect who and what I am, I do accept your apologies. As I said, I am in SEA and I see great opportunities to cooperate with you in some fields (all legal, never believe the neo-Chinese propaganda that all the SEAs are criminal places and it's everywhere dangerous!), so peace, please!
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