You are a liar and you spread multiple times lies that Desi was raped by her father when she was a little girl, that she works as a janitor and her manager rapes her, that she works as a sexworker, that she is an obese person, also those previous fake messages and hallucinations that someone insults you, press you to buy the not-for-sale forum and do on.
We don't think of you as a precious for the community person because of all these problems above and additionally because you got insane contradicting behaviour: you are saying the forum is good but in the same day/days you call it f*ked + you want your account to be disabled but then you re-register new account and starts more lies, innuendos, obscene posts and the rest of your unique crazy-ness. So to "lose" a damaging our reputation, earnings and mood incel like you is a winning and a relief!