[Aquonut]

Dear SEO forum:
  I am Zhang. I really feel regretful for my behaviours and words, derived from my misunderstandings of what many forumers here have done to me actually with good-intentions... I really feel sorry for having calling this forum 'shitty' and 'retarded' because of my being irritated at one moment. I was inable to understand some behaviours and words of yours so that these days I've been insufferable and unreasonable. I really feel sorry.
  Now I've realized they are actually all well-intented, but because of the cultural differences I misunderstood them as slandering and thought of them as irritating and annoying...
  I am not saying because of the cultural differences I am not wrong at all. I am not exonerating myself by the cultural differences, but I still have to say that E.Asians like keeping each other a 'distance'. I don't know how to put it well in English but E.Asians are not as 'enthusiastic' as people in other countries, and E.Asians care way more about others' feelings than them, so that many actually well-intented and caring behaviours and words of many forumers were misunderstood and misthought of... I really feel sorry.(To elucidate them I have to talk a blue streak and to keep this thread ontopic I won't and just briefly talk about them here)
  I should've been communicating putting myself in another mindset instead of still keeping myself in the E.Asian mindset so that I misunderstood and misthought. This is a very big felony I've committed so that I've brought the very bad miasma into this forum.
  I should've been more understanding and 'flexible'.
  As the voluntary punnishment, I ask for banning myself for 1-2 weeks and if the mods think they are not enough I won't be upset at all to be banned for longer.
  I hope we can go back to the original friendly and positive relationship.
                                                                                                                                                           Yours sincerely
                                                                                                                                                           Zhang
                                                                                                                                                          2024/06/05

[Aquonut]

About the newest update about me:
No I didn't give up at all! Instead I am working out these days.
I argued with MSL yesterday because he got angry with me having talked about how he shouldn't have done this or that for multiple times so that he couldn't stand it and quarrelled with me.
I also have to say sorry to @MSL, because I didn't know you were already being enduring me for talking about the same things you shouldn't have done continually to make you feel annoyed and irritated. I should've known talking these will make my interlocutors shamed and annoyed. I really feel sorry, and I didn't give up working out because of that quarrel.
If you still want to befriend me on QQ, contact me and I will pass your application.

[MSL]

 Yes, I didn't want to make a topic about it because I was thinking that mister Zhang will rethink what happened and will say at least a "sorry") which he did now actually. That's a decent move, so I forgive him.
 Now, to avoid misunderstandings, I will tell you what we had as problems:

 1. He thinks that my tone sounds "parental." when I tell him to geo-maxx (later I stopped to mention the geo-maxxing). Yesterday he again mentioned this tone of mine (which is not on purpose, I just talk to everyone like that, but never heard that I sound "parental".)
 The solution I suggested is to stop chatting about all those geomaxxes', incels' , forums' and other topics that make him feel discomfortable.

2. Because yesterday he brought back the geomaxx topic, forum topic, etc., I got mad, just because he didn't keep our agreement about it.

3. He is not liking some of you and I also don't like everybody here, but the difference is that I don't speak "all", I have "differential thinking" when it comes to summarize, conclude, etc. For example, I hate Putin and Xi, but I don't hate all Russians or all Chinese.
 (Here, I want to use the chance to offer all of you to say a sorry to him for all that felt wrong. Let's show him that we are generous and we can forgive a person who said sorry here too.)

4. I will re-add him soon on QQ, once I feel free because as you know, I spend a lot of time for the food stuff (to find it cheaper or free, to wash it very well, to take care of the hygiene at home, to sport and to learn something new every day.) My life is better now, than when I was in China (after it became Xi-na), but still full of challenges - not enough income online, failed shop offline, my father didn't keep his word and wants to give his flat to his gf, which puts me in a dangerous situation (because now I have no own property), no need to mention the local cheater who stole my 100.76 dollars.
 In my private chats I avoid to repeat these problems because it's annoying. I repeat here to make it clear, to remind you again, why I only focus in the important stuff first and can't chat again and again about one and the same topics online.

[Aquonut]

Yes, I didn't want to make a topic about it because I was thinking that mister Zhang will rethink what happened and will say at least a "sorry") which he did now actually. That's a decent move, so I forgive him.
 Now, to avoid misunderstandings, I will tell you what we had as problems:

 1. He thinks that my tone sounds "parental." when I tell him to geo-maxx (later I stopped to mention the geo-maxxing). Yesterday he again mentioned this tone of mine (which is not on purpose, I just talk to everyone like that, but never heard that I sound "parental".)
 The solution I suggested is to stop chatting about all those geomaxxes', incels' , forums' and other topics that make him feel discomfortable.

2. Because yesterday he brought back the geomaxx topic, forum topic, etc., I got mad, just because he didn't keep our agreement about it.

3. He is not liking some of you and I also don't like everybody here, but the difference is that I don't speak "all", I have "differential thinking" when it comes to summarize, conclude, etc. For example, I hate Putin and Xi, but I don't hate all Russians or all Chinese.
 (Here, I want to use the chance to offer all of you to say a sorry to him for all that felt wrong. Let's show him that we are generous and we can forgive a person who said sorry here too.)

4. I will re-add him soon on QQ, once I feel free because as you know, I spend a lot of time for the food stuff (to find it cheaper or free, to wash it very well, to take care of the hygiene at home, to sport and to learn something new every day.) My life is better now, than when I was in China (after it became Xi-na), but still full of challenges - not enough income online, failed shop offline, my father didn't keep his word and wants to give his flat to his gf, which puts me in a dangerous situation (because now I have no own property), no need to mention the local cheater who stole my 100.76 dollars.
 In my private chats I avoid to repeat these problems because it's annoying. I repeat here to make it clear, to remind you again, why I only focus in the important stuff first and can't chat again and again about one and the same topics online.

Yeah just didn't know mentioning the forum and geomaxxing etc. again would make you irritated(I really didn't know... I knew I had to mention any of them when it was REALLY NECESSARY but still got him mad which was totally out of my expectation...). I was even thinking if yesteday something bad happened to you so that you got unexpectedly irritated.
Yeah and it was also my fault to say 'the forum' instead of xxx, yyy, zzz, and etc., which would irritate people who didn't even implicate the whole story... But this is not something related to my thinking. This is just my habit. I will change this bad habit.(For the same reason I said 'The CCP' instead of 'Xi')
About some of the forumers including Alexa and so on, what made me irritated to say the words such as 'retarded' and which are offensive and infuriating is that regardless of MSL having suggested to stop talking anything about the memory the slandering the glass-heartedness, there were still people who came to talk about how unstable I was, but later on I realized they didn't realize I just neglected the boss's problem.
And to clarify, what made me feel 'parental' is not talking about Cambodia or geomaxxing but the tone(there is a difference between 'talking about geomaxxing' and 'talking about geomaxxing in a parental tone'. I don't dislike the former but I dislike the latter. You can of course talk about geomaxxing but not talk about how important it is to me for multiple times which indicates a parental tone. I don't need to be educated that much.
You can say 'it's important to geomax. China is now in danger' to me for once or twice, but when you can talk about it for like 4-5 times, it will make me annoyed and makes me feel parental. I don't think you had talked about this stuff to everyone else for that many times innit?
Like, you are doing the food stuff. If I tell you 'Oh it's better to package 7-8 sushis in a box than packaging 10 sushis in a box'(just an example. Don't get down to telling me whether it is true) for once or twice, of course you will feel I am helpful, but what about 'Oh gosh please package 6-7 sushis in a box! Why are you still packaging 10 sushis???' or repeating the former sentence for like 4-5 times? I don't think you will still feel warm-hearted. It's not my personality that is weird or eccentric. I was really surprised that I needed to clarify it tbh.
I can't think of other reasons instead of the cultural differences. E.Asians indeed care about tone, feelings, expression, etc.. For Japaneses even to your boss if you don't use 'Keigo' you will get registered.
Yeah I can relate to what 100.76 dollars mean to you... I am really sorry that the cheater has yet to get the justice... One thing(i.e, I am not extolling totalitarianism or Xiism) that totalitarianism has better is nomocracy. If you got cheated 100.76 dollars in Shanghai the cheater could get the justice like within one week.

[Aquonut]

About the memory, no, I am not obsessed with my memory at all. Neither do I feel inferior about it nor I think I am bad at it. I always think I am good at it otherwise I would not get mad when Non-SEO and MSL said how my memory was bad and MSL even misthought I had Amnesia lol, but what made me mad is Non-SEO's sesquipedalian misprojection including I having had checked the pill list but I having forgot the whole content afterwards. This is insufferable to me, and to my surprise when I talked about it was wrong to do so, no one understood and instead thought I was glass-hearted?? Well imo it's understandable to everyone because when you misproject about one person a lot, of course it will make him mad. So, please be clear about the real thing that made me mad, instead of still misthinking I was obsessed with my memory(I am kinda obsessed with my own intelligence however, but I think it is not high enough. It is at the Gifted level but I want it to be at the Very Gifted level and if it was higher it would be better)

About whether I lied to you that MSL agreed to lock my three threads, again, I just misunderstood. Tbh thinking I am dishonest is even more irritating to me than thinking I am bad-memoryed or having Amnesia. I really hate to be thought of as a dishonest liar or a bad person. Please don't call me as a liar or smth like that, if you want our relationship to restore.

About having felt annoyed by shouting about my changing my username and pfp, yeah again I was false to misunderstand it as 'surveilance'. It was just a well-intented caring behaviour, but tbh I really don't like it... I don't like being noticed about my changing username or pfp at all. Maybe this is also due to the cultural differences, but if you really want to do so, I won't get irritated ever again. 

[Aquonut]

About the memory, no, I am not obsessed with my memory at all. Neither do I feel inferior about it nor I think I am bad at it. I always think I am good at it otherwise I would not get mad when Non-SEO and MSL said how my memory was bad and MSL even misthought I had Amnesia lol, but what made me mad is Non-SEO's sesquipedalian misprojection including I having had checked the pill list but I having forgot the whole content afterwards. This is insufferable to me, and to my surprise when I talked about it was wrong to do so, no one understood and instead thought I was glass-hearted?? Well imo it's understandable to everyone because when you misproject about one person a lot, of course it will make him mad. So, please be clear about the real thing that made me mad, instead of still misthinking I was obsessed with my memory(I am kinda obsessed with my own intelligence however, but I think it is not high enough. It is at the Gifted level but I want it to be at the Very Gifted level and if it was higher it would be better)

About whether I lied to you that MSL agreed to lock my three threads, again, I just misunderstood. Tbh thinking I am dishonest is even more irritating to me than thinking I am bad-memoryed or having Amnesia. I really hate to be thought of as a dishonest liar or a bad person. Please don't call me as a liar or smth like that, if you want our relationship to restore.

About having felt annoyed by shouting about my changing my username and pfp, yeah again I was false to misunderstand it as 'surveilance'. It was just a well-intented caring behaviour, but tbh I really don't like it... I don't like being noticed about my changing username or pfp at all. Maybe this is also due to the cultural differences, but if you really want to do so, I won't get irritated ever again.

About being glass-hearted, this is another thing that makes me feel pale... and even when it means I can't stand being called soyish or smth like that, it really makes me feel misundestood a lot.
I've even been said to kms quickly because I am not only short but also studying in a non-governmental regular university by a troller online, have you ever faced that? It didn't drive me to kms because I was not glass-hearted at all.
The break-up with my best loved girl, my first ex didn't drive me to kms either, because I was not glass-heated at all. A troller calling me a midget/manlet didn't even keep my mind bound to it at all, just because I was not glass-hearted at all, and so on.
Calling me soyish or smth like that is actually just a breeze to me, so, I am not glass-hearted, and what made me feel angry are other things.
About my familial situation now... we are still living in my hometown, and the judge told us before 7/15 she would 200% solve the huggery. Okay I trust her... And, what is a good news to us is that, the total demolitional fees will be $1, 545, 714.28571! Because all of my ffffffffffffffffffff relatives either do not have a 'welfare-oriented public house' 福利分房 or are not a co-occupant, and the father of one of them was verified as not an 'educated youth', and that house is a public house 公房, so it is not my paternal grandparents' legacy, and since law is 'inhumane', neither of them will get any dividend of the total demolitional fees. Thus we can get all of them, namely $1, 545, 714.28571.
But, what is bad about the whole story is that, that house is actually worth significantly higher than even $2, 857, 143 or even higher! Because that house is located at the best location all over the whole Shanghai, and even the Band is worse than it! Yeah although it is old(it's a house built even before 1949...), broken and the living area of it is only around 80 m²... it is just worth so high, because of its location. But, the government deflated the appraised value of this house by EXTREMELY A LOT! They deflated it to only $742, 857 or so... to earn big money from the demolition. So you can see how evil Xi is. There are way worse stories about demolition in Shanghai and you can know them via Ytb.

[Aquonut]

About the memory, no, I am not obsessed with my memory at all. Neither do I feel inferior about it nor I think I am bad at it. I always think I am good at it otherwise I would not get mad when Non-SEO and MSL said how my memory was bad and MSL even misthought I had Amnesia lol, but what made me mad is Non-SEO's sesquipedalian misprojection including I having had checked the pill list but I having forgot the whole content afterwards. This is insufferable to me, and to my surprise when I talked about it was wrong to do so, no one understood and instead thought I was glass-hearted?? Well imo it's understandable to everyone because when you misproject about one person a lot, of course it will make him mad. So, please be clear about the real thing that made me mad, instead of still misthinking I was obsessed with my memory(I am kinda obsessed with my own intelligence however, but I think it is not high enough. It is at the Gifted level but I want it to be at the Very Gifted level and if it was higher it would be better)

About whether I lied to you that MSL agreed to lock my three threads, again, I just misunderstood. Tbh thinking I am dishonest is even more irritating to me than thinking I am bad-memoryed or having Amnesia. I really hate to be thought of as a dishonest liar or a bad person. Please don't call me as a liar or smth like that, if you want our relationship to restore.

About having felt annoyed by shouting about my changing my username and pfp, yeah again I was false to misunderstand it as 'surveilance'. It was just a well-intented caring behaviour, but tbh I really don't like it... I don't like being noticed about my changing username or pfp at all. Maybe this is also due to the cultural differences, but if you really want to do so, I won't get irritated ever again.

About being glass-hearted, this is another thing that makes me feel pale... and even when it means I can't stand being called soyish or smth like that, it really makes me feel misundestood a lot.
I've even been said to kms quickly because I am not only short but also studying in a non-governmental regular university by a troller online, have you ever faced that? It didn't drive me to kms because I was not glass-hearted at all.
The break-up with my best loved girl, my first ex didn't drive me to kms either, because I was not glass-heated at all. A troller calling me a midget/manlet didn't even keep my mind bound to it at all, just because I was not glass-hearted at all, and so on.
Calling me soyish or smth like that is actually just a breeze to me, so, I am not glass-hearted, and what made me feel angry are other things.
About my familial situation now... we are still living in my hometown, and the judge told us before 7/15 she would 200% solve the huggery. Okay I trust her... And, what is a good news to us is that, the total demolitional fees will be $1, 545, 714.28571! Because all of my ffffffffffffffffffff relatives either do not have a 'welfare-oriented public house' 福利分房 or are not a co-occupant, and the father of one of them was verified as not an 'educated youth', and that house is a public house 公房, so it is not my paternal grandparents' legacy, and since law is 'inhumane', neither of them will get any dividend of the total demolitional fees. Thus we can get all of them, namely $1, 545, 714.28571.
But, what is bad about the whole story is that, that house is actually worth significantly higher than even $2, 857, 143 or even higher! Because that house is located at the best location all over the whole Shanghai, and even the Band is worse than it! Yeah although it is old(it's a house built even before 1949...), broken and the living area of it is only around 80 m²... it is just worth so high, because of its location. But, the government deflated the appraised value of this house by EXTREMELY A LOT! They deflated it to only $742, 857 or so... to earn big money from the demolition. So you can see how evil Xi is. There are way worse stories about demolition in Shanghai and you can know them via Ytb.

"do not have" → "have".

[Aquonut]

About the memory, no, I am not obsessed with my memory at all. Neither do I feel inferior about it nor I think I am bad at it. I always think I am good at it otherwise I would not get mad when Non-SEO and MSL said how my memory was bad and MSL even misthought I had Amnesia lol, but what made me mad is Non-SEO's sesquipedalian misprojection including I having had checked the pill list but I having forgot the whole content afterwards. This is insufferable to me, and to my surprise when I talked about it was wrong to do so, no one understood and instead thought I was glass-hearted?? Well imo it's understandable to everyone because when you misproject about one person a lot, of course it will make him mad. So, please be clear about the real thing that made me mad, instead of still misthinking I was obsessed with my memory(I am kinda obsessed with my own intelligence however, but I think it is not high enough. It is at the Gifted level but I want it to be at the Very Gifted level and if it was higher it would be better)

About whether I lied to you that MSL agreed to lock my three threads, again, I just misunderstood. Tbh thinking I am dishonest is even more irritating to me than thinking I am bad-memoryed or having Amnesia. I really hate to be thought of as a dishonest liar or a bad person. Please don't call me as a liar or smth like that, if you want our relationship to restore.

About having felt annoyed by shouting about my changing my username and pfp, yeah again I was false to misunderstand it as 'surveilance'. It was just a well-intented caring behaviour, but tbh I really don't like it... I don't like being noticed about my changing username or pfp at all. Maybe this is also due to the cultural differences, but if you really want to do so, I won't get irritated ever again.

About being glass-hearted, this is another thing that makes me feel pale... and even when it means I can't stand being called soyish or smth like that, it really makes me feel misundestood a lot.
I've even been said to kms quickly because I am not only short but also studying in a non-governmental regular university by a troller online, have you ever faced that? It didn't drive me to kms because I was not glass-hearted at all.
The break-up with my best loved girl, my first ex didn't drive me to kms either, because I was not glass-heated at all. A troller calling me a midget/manlet didn't even keep my mind bound to it at all, just because I was not glass-hearted at all, and so on.
Calling me soyish or smth like that is actually just a breeze to me, so, I am not glass-hearted, and what made me feel angry are other things.
About my familial situation now... we are still living in my hometown, and the judge told us before 7/15 she would 200% solve the huggery. Okay I trust her... And, what is a good news to us is that, the total demolitional fees will be $1, 545, 714.28571! Because all of my ffffffffffffffffffff relatives either do not have a 'welfare-oriented public house' 福利分房 or are not a co-occupant, and the father of one of them was verified as not an 'educated youth', and that house is a public house 公房, so it is not my paternal grandparents' legacy, and since law is 'inhumane', neither of them will get any dividend of the total demolitional fees. Thus we can get all of them, namely $1, 545, 714.28571.
But, what is bad about the whole story is that, that house is actually worth significantly higher than even $2, 857, 143 or even higher! Because that house is located at the best location all over the whole Shanghai, and even the Band is worse than it! Yeah although it is old(it's a house built even before 1949...), broken and the living area of it is only around 80 m²... it is just worth so high, because of its location. But, the government deflated the appraised value of this house by EXTREMELY A LOT! They deflated it to only $742, 857 or so... to earn big money from the demolition. So you can see how evil Xi is. There are way worse stories about demolition in Shanghai and you can know them via Ytb.

"neither" → "none"

[Aquonut]

About the memory, no, I am not obsessed with my memory at all. Neither do I feel inferior about it nor I think I am bad at it. I always think I am good at it otherwise I would not get mad when Non-SEO and MSL said how my memory was bad and MSL even misthought I had Amnesia lol, but what made me mad is Non-SEO's sesquipedalian misprojection including I having had checked the pill list but I having forgot the whole content afterwards. This is insufferable to me, and to my surprise when I talked about it was wrong to do so, no one understood and instead thought I was glass-hearted?? Well imo it's understandable to everyone because when you misproject about one person a lot, of course it will make him mad. So, please be clear about the real thing that made me mad, instead of still misthinking I was obsessed with my memory(I am kinda obsessed with my own intelligence however, but I think it is not high enough. It is at the Gifted level but I want it to be at the Very Gifted level and if it was higher it would be better)

About whether I lied to you that MSL agreed to lock my three threads, again, I just misunderstood. Tbh thinking I am dishonest is even more irritating to me than thinking I am bad-memoryed or having Amnesia. I really hate to be thought of as a dishonest liar or a bad person. Please don't call me as a liar or smth like that, if you want our relationship to restore.

About having felt annoyed by shouting about my changing my username and pfp, yeah again I was false to misunderstand it as 'surveilance'. It was just a well-intented caring behaviour, but tbh I really don't like it... I don't like being noticed about my changing username or pfp at all. Maybe this is also due to the cultural differences, but if you really want to do so, I won't get irritated ever again.

About being glass-hearted, this is another thing that makes me feel pale... and even when it means I can't stand being called soyish or smth like that, it really makes me feel misundestood a lot.
I've even been said to kms quickly because I am not only short but also studying in a non-governmental regular university by a troller online, have you ever faced that? It didn't drive me to kms because I was not glass-hearted at all.
The break-up with my best loved girl, my first ex didn't drive me to kms either, because I was not glass-heated at all. A troller calling me a midget/manlet didn't even keep my mind bound to it at all, just because I was not glass-hearted at all, and so on.
Calling me soyish or smth like that is actually just a breeze to me, so, I am not glass-hearted, and what made me feel angry are other things.
About my familial situation now... we are still living in my hometown, and the judge told us before 7/15 she would 200% solve the huggery. Okay I trust her... And, what is a good news to us is that, the total demolitional fees will be $1, 545, 714.28571! Because all of my ffffffffffffffffffff relatives either do not have a 'welfare-oriented public house' 福利分房 or are not a co-occupant, and the father of one of them was verified as not an 'educated youth', and that house is a public house 公房, so it is not my paternal grandparents' legacy, and since law is 'inhumane', neither of them will get any dividend of the total demolitional fees. Thus we can get all of them, namely $1, 545, 714.28571.
But, what is bad about the whole story is that, that house is actually worth significantly higher than even $2, 857, 143 or even higher! Because that house is located at the best location all over the whole Shanghai, and even the Band is worse than it! Yeah although it is old(it's a house built even before 1949...), broken and the living area of it is only around 80 m²... it is just worth so high, because of its location. But, the government deflated the appraised value of this house by EXTREMELY A LOT! They deflated it to only $742, 857 or so... to earn big money from the demolition. So you can see how evil Xi is. There are way worse stories about demolition in Shanghai and you can know them via Ytb.

I still want to supplement the house thing. Actually my paternal grandparents were not 'indigenous Shanghaieses', who actually fleed the disaster respectively from Qidong City in Jiangsu Province and from Jiaxing City in Zhejiang Province, and started a dim sum shop when they were 18 y.o which was a very successful one and named after my paternal grandpa's name, after they bought the house(back then, luckily the housing price was way way lower than today...). After the house was 'publicized' with a compensative fee of tens of thousands of rmbs and the shop was confiscated by the CCP, my grandparents were also arranged into a food company and my grandpa's salary was extremely high——90+ rmbs per month(back then the average salary of Xujiahui was only several rmbs) and grandma's was 60/70 rmbs per month.
They reproduced 13 children, one of which was just my father. My father was also a very successful business man who started the shops including a fruit shop who had deposited hundreds of thousands of rmbs back in 1998 or 1999! But to successfully divorce his first wife who couldn't reproduce, he 'sent' her hundreds of thousands of rmbs with his shops, so that my parents gotta start a restaurant after they had been working as respectively a receptionist(before or after she had had been working as a cook) and a bartender in a department, and they were earning like around 30000 rmbs per month by operating that restaurant, and have deposited significantly more than 500, 000 rmbs, and then like only 20000 rmbs per month because the front store was sold because of the business loss(470, 000 rmbs). And finally that house got demolited.
To sell that house, we need all of the co-occupants to agree with it, so either will they agree but you have to give them some dividend or they just won't agree... before my paternal grandparents and my oldest uncle passed away(because all of them were the co-occupants). But even after all of them passed away, no one would buy this shitty house with such much money. Don't forget this house is worth significantly more than 20, 000, 000 rmbs or even more! Who will spend so much money to buy that kind of house?? And no one even wanted to rent this house which is so shitty.(And don't say 'just furnish it'... That's way too unrealistic) So that's why we were 'trapped' in such a bad plight... luckily it was demolited.
The reason why there are so many old buildings and houses in Shanghai particularly in the urban areas is that you have to demolite with extremely very much money, because the housing price of Shanghai is very very high! Just imagine you have to spend 70, 000, 000 yo 80, 000, 000 or even more to demolite a broken Long Tang 弄堂! Well the price of a house is mainly dependent of the location, and that's why that house can be worth so high as though old and broken it is...

[Aquonut]

About the memory, no, I am not obsessed with my memory at all. Neither do I feel inferior about it nor I think I am bad at it. I always think I am good at it otherwise I would not get mad when Non-SEO and MSL said how my memory was bad and MSL even misthought I had Amnesia lol, but what made me mad is Non-SEO's sesquipedalian misprojection including I having had checked the pill list but I having forgot the whole content afterwards. This is insufferable to me, and to my surprise when I talked about it was wrong to do so, no one understood and instead thought I was glass-hearted?? Well imo it's understandable to everyone because when you misproject about one person a lot, of course it will make him mad. So, please be clear about the real thing that made me mad, instead of still misthinking I was obsessed with my memory(I am kinda obsessed with my own intelligence however, but I think it is not high enough. It is at the Gifted level but I want it to be at the Very Gifted level and if it was higher it would be better)

About whether I lied to you that MSL agreed to lock my three threads, again, I just misunderstood. Tbh thinking I am dishonest is even more irritating to me than thinking I am bad-memoryed or having Amnesia. I really hate to be thought of as a dishonest liar or a bad person. Please don't call me as a liar or smth like that, if you want our relationship to restore.

About having felt annoyed by shouting about my changing my username and pfp, yeah again I was false to misunderstand it as 'surveilance'. It was just a well-intented caring behaviour, but tbh I really don't like it... I don't like being noticed about my changing username or pfp at all. Maybe this is also due to the cultural differences, but if you really want to do so, I won't get irritated ever again.

About being glass-hearted, this is another thing that makes me feel pale... and even when it means I can't stand being called soyish or smth like that, it really makes me feel misundestood a lot.
I've even been said to kms quickly because I am not only short but also studying in a non-governmental regular university by a troller online, have you ever faced that? It didn't drive me to kms because I was not glass-hearted at all.
The break-up with my best loved girl, my first ex didn't drive me to kms either, because I was not glass-heated at all. A troller calling me a midget/manlet didn't even keep my mind bound to it at all, just because I was not glass-hearted at all, and so on.
Calling me soyish or smth like that is actually just a breeze to me, so, I am not glass-hearted, and what made me feel angry are other things.
About my familial situation now... we are still living in my hometown, and the judge told us before 7/15 she would 200% solve the huggery. Okay I trust her... And, what is a good news to us is that, the total demolitional fees will be $1, 545, 714.28571! Because all of my ffffffffffffffffffff relatives either do not have a 'welfare-oriented public house' 福利分房 or are not a co-occupant, and the father of one of them was verified as not an 'educated youth', and that house is a public house 公房, so it is not my paternal grandparents' legacy, and since law is 'inhumane', neither of them will get any dividend of the total demolitional fees. Thus we can get all of them, namely $1, 545, 714.28571.
But, what is bad about the whole story is that, that house is actually worth significantly higher than even $2, 857, 143 or even higher! Because that house is located at the best location all over the whole Shanghai, and even the Band is worse than it! Yeah although it is old(it's a house built even before 1949...), broken and the living area of it is only around 80 m²... it is just worth so high, because of its location. But, the government deflated the appraised value of this house by EXTREMELY A LOT! They deflated it to only $742, 857 or so... to earn big money from the demolition. So you can see how evil Xi is. There are way worse stories about demolition in Shanghai and you can know them via Ytb.

I still want to supplement the house thing. Actually my paternal grandparents were not 'indigenous Shanghaieses', who actually fleed the disaster respectively from Qidong City in Jiangsu Province and from Jiaxing City in Zhejiang Province, and started a dim sum shop when they were 18 y.o which was a very successful one and named after my paternal grandpa's name, after they bought the house(back then, luckily the housing price was way way lower than today...). After the house was 'publicized' with a compensative fee of tens of thousands of rmbs and the shop was confiscated by the CCP, my grandparents were also arranged into a food company and my grandpa's salary was extremely high——90+ rmbs per month(back then the average salary of Xujiahui was only several rmbs) and grandma's was 60/70 rmbs per month.
They reproduced 13 children, one of which was just my father. My father was also a very successful business man who started the shops including a fruit shop who had deposited hundreds of thousands of rmbs back in 1998 or 1999! But to successfully divorce his first wife who couldn't reproduce, he 'sent' her hundreds of thousands of rmbs with his shops, so that my parents gotta start a restaurant after they had been working as respectively a receptionist(before or after she had had been working as a cook) and a bartender in a department, and they were earning like around 30000 rmbs per month by operating that restaurant, and have deposited significantly more than 500, 000 rmbs, and then like only 20000 rmbs per month because the front store was sold because of the business loss(470, 000 rmbs). And finally that house got demolited.
To sell that house, we need all of the co-occupants to agree with it, so either will they agree but you have to give them some dividend or they just won't agree... before my paternal grandparents and my oldest uncle passed away(because all of them were the co-occupants). But even after all of them passed away, no one would buy this shitty house with such much money. Don't forget this house is worth significantly more than 20, 000, 000 rmbs or even more! Who will spend so much money to buy that kind of house?? And no one even wanted to rent this house which is so shitty.(And don't say 'just furnish it'... That's way too unrealistic) So that's why we were 'trapped' in such a bad plight... luckily it was demolited.
The reason why there are so many old buildings and houses in Shanghai particularly in the urban areas is that you have to demolite with extremely very much money, because the housing price of Shanghai is very very high! Just imagine you have to spend 70, 000, 000 yo 80, 000, 000 or even more to demolite a broken Long Tang 弄堂! Well the price of a house is mainly dependent of the location, and that's why that house can be worth so high as though old and broken it is...

Someone may be wondering whether I as well as my mom suffered any loss because our lack of Shanghai registration. Not at all! Instead, I was being benefitted because my mom did not have Shanghai registration!
Because my father was not working in a unit, he was verified as a 'jobless' person so that all of us could enjoy all of the welfares a person with Shanghai registration can enjoy, and because my mom did not have it, I could be having lunch since my primary school FOR FREE! And I also could be studying in Shanghai because of the updated policy. And after we buy a house afterwards, I will have Shanghai registration and be enjoying the 'Wu Xin' 五薪 as a person who is working.
And actually my and my mom actually can get Shanghai registration way earlier by my father applying for an economically affordable house, but he learned from the street office(he had a good relationship with the street officers) that if he applied for one, it would negatively influence on the future demolition so he did not apply for one, which is a very right move.

[Non-SEO]

I decided to ignore you forever and ever but these words were touching. I also do apologize for all I really did wrong.

By the way, around 50% of this forum is composed of Chinese mainlanders (aka 大陆人）if you you pointing to the cultures.

[Aquonut]

I decided to ignore you forever and ever but these words were touching. I also do apologize for all I really did wrong.

By the way, around 50% of this forum is composed of Chinese mainlanders (aka 大陆人）if you you pointing to the cultures.

Well, I didn't know that around 50% of this forum was composed to mainlanders, and everyone I've contacted with is not a mainlander, but a Russian(MSL, Nadia, and another girl.. I can't type her name) or else.
I even think one of the reasons why all of the mainlanders here except me are not active at all is the cultural differences.
I also forgot to say that, there were also cultural differences across the regions of China. Maybe Northerns are way closer to you.

[Non-SEO]

MSL and the rest mentioned above are NOT Russian. They are Bulgarian (保加利亚人）.  We already talked about it before. 

“英语课” is a Chinese southern, the rest, they may choose to share or not.

Kitsune's from Norway.

[Alexa]

宝贝儿，as a northern representative I'd say that there are plenty of very rude and explosive northern men (and women too) there 🉑...

I sent you long time ago messages in Chinese language and some Chinese photos, but you, surely, forgot them. It's not the point (don't think we criticize your memory anymore) - the point is that we really told you all those things: that you got 10 years old body (before the gymmaxxing), that you better should follow our example and to gymmaxx, that most of the Shwnghaiese females doesn't suit you, that you better buy your drinks and food by yourself, don't let your bluepilled papa to ruin up your diet and blah-blah, blah-blah ONLY out of concern.

Now you may feel I sound "maternal" but it's not the intention. And you can be sure that I don't want to be like a mama for you if you recheck your messages. When you need more nudes for a good phosical satisfaction just drop me a PM. It's a solid prove that I don't see you as my son, but I read carefully everything what you write, even your signatures (no paranoia thought, please!) 

[Xsokii]

MSL and the rest mentioned above are NOT Russian. They are Bulgarian (保加利亚人）.  We already talked about it before. 

“英语课” is a Chinese southern, the rest, they may choose to share or not.

Kitsune's from Norway.

Oh look I was mentioned.