Again, if there is any new argument, this post will be locked.
Again, I love'd' this forum, as Alexa said, whether to like it or not was up to me and now I dislike it, which may gain me criticism but I still gotta say it.
Y'all indeed gained me happy moments, I admit it, and I appreciate your efforts, but now it seems to me I better leave.
I won't say the experience about this forum is bad in general, but disappointing, because it really stroke me when I talked about how I got hurt but everyone here was like 'What? That hurt you? Wow what a glass heart?'
Now see what I want to get?
I don't want any apology anymore but at least no argument and no misunderstanding.
We could've actually calmed down and talked about how to deal with the sh!t but after having been criticized and misunderstood etc., I knew it was time to leave.
Actually the core of all of the problems created these days is just how to get understood and understand, ain't it?
I know all you've done came from good intentions, but I just got dissatisfied with some behaviours, even though they also came there. What's wrong with it? Emphasizing on how important freedom of speech is while not permitting me to complain?
Everyone can be wrong and he is likely to be 'complained' about.
Like, remember the day when I posted about Buddhism just to make the members here 'euphoric' while at the end I got the complaint that I just wanted to make others give up ascending? I felt sorry after that even though posting that came from my good intention.
But why when I talked about something that made me dissatisfied coming from good intention, I got criticized and misunderstood?
The good sides of this forum are admittedly rarely good, including its helpfulness, but the bad sides are... I don't know what to say, maybe excessive freedom of speech so that it allows everyone to not care about the other side's feeling because it comes from good intention? Even I myself don't know.
Last thing to say and I will move on:
Yeah, I know VERY CLEARLY that all of the behaviours are well-intented, but so? Some of them just hurt me. If I can't complain about being hurt by a random behaviour that is well-intented, then why did I get criticized about posting Buddhism which was said to have others give up ascending? Is this '双标'(double-standarded)?
My anger has gone far earlier so those behaviours have gone nothing to me, but just to tell you what I am dissatisfied with.
I know your dedications into me, as if I were a family member of you. No one can't know, and I really appreciate them, otherwise why had I posted mutiple informative posts here? That is just because I appreciate the efforts, though idk what is special about me to make you so dedicated into me... Because I have MDD? But to tell you, a MDD patient does not like to be specially treated. What he wants is actually to be treated equally, at least this is my case.
I know it also hurts emotionally when you are devoting but the devotee says something he thinks of as bad about you, but if you really want to make him happy, you should listen to it, because you are making him angry by some means right? Otherwise tell me what the difference is between you and typical Chinese parents, who will get angry because their kid does not something they do to him and say they are devoting to him so he should not complain.